- I went to a 40th birthday party today - it was a beautiful location, rose centerpieces, silver place settings, the works. I wore my Jackie O white jacket. Everyone got up and said one word about the birthday girl. Her mom got up and talked about her life and what she'd accomplished. She also brought all this memorabilia from her life: Christening cards (!), photos, school jackets, graduation pictures. I thought it was great - I also thought about me doing this for S and D. This is my 4th 40th birthday party for friends. People are leaping off the cliff of middle age one after the other. I picture this conveyer belt with all of us on it in a line. I'm next.
- Saying no. I hate saying no. My parents called yesterday and asked us if we wanted to have dinner tonight. I wanted to say yes but said no because I knew we'd be tired after a crazy Saturday with birthday parties and guests. I always blame it on my husband but deep down inside it's really for me. I need downtime. I need time to myself to lay down if even in my head. I think my max for hanging out with someone is about 3-5 hours then I need solitary confinement.
- Getting in shape. I'm really trying harder these days. I've sweated to the oldies on my ancient Nordic Track in my dining room and have signed up for BabyBootCamp. So we'll see if I can make this late-30s gut go away. Let's just say my side profile is looking a bit lumpy for my taste. My breasts have a little bit of company. (i.e. roly poly front view).
